1. 17:35 8th Apr 2014

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    Personal

    I think im going to start going back to church.

     
  2. Hmmm. I feel old, but at the same time I always feel like I have to grow up more and more each day. The struggle.

     
  3. Dont be fooled by your emptiness. It’s just more room for happiness.

     
  4. 01:12

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    personal

    Lately, I’ve been writing a lot. It’s been a while since we last talked. I think i’ve forgotten how to pray. I’ve been having a lot of anxiety attacks more and more recently. They’re getting worse and worse. They all keep asking me why? Why? I honestly don’t know why. Maybe it’s the fact that if I don’t get a move out option situated in a month I’ll literally be living in my car. Maybe it’s the fact that I haven’t found a job yet, and I just got turned down at one of my last hopes today. Maybe it’s the fact that I might not have enough to even move out, and keep my business schedule one time. Maybe it’s that fact. I’m trying to make my own business. Trying to make my way from literally the bottom. Maybe it’s the fact that i’m scared, and I have a lot of doubt. Maybe it’s the fact that I still have to finish this semester off with 11 page essays and finals. At the same time trying to keep in contact with my connections for my photographer, graphic artist, creative artist, printing shop, and promotional groups. Maybe it’s the fact that I miss my fucking family. Maybe it’s the fact that the only blood family I have is across the fucking country. Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve had my heart broken. Maybe it’s the fact that I always feel lonely as hell. By myself. In Atlanta. Yea I have friends here, but I miss my family… My ohana. My brothers and sisters. Always by myself. Always… Starting a business on my own, moving out to my own place, working full time, and trying to handle expenses and taxes and patenting. I feel like I’m growing up too fast. I admit it. I’m pretty fucking weak. I’m beginning to think that I don’t even deserve anything. Help me god. Help. I’m drowning. Make it stop. Give me strength. Make me humble. Help me love. Please help me. Give me the strength I need to continue to live for the people that I love and care about. To continue to live my life for other people no matter how frustrated and tired I get. Thank you for all of the people in my life who continue to support me and love me and most importantly believe in me. Help me and watch me. Guide me to remember what I stand for. The reason I’m living my life. Give me strength to continue to live.

     
  5. A song about loving someone at the wrong time.

    Please don’t stand so close to me
    I’m having trouble breathing
    I’m afraid of what you’ll see right now
    I give you everything I am
    All my broken heart beats
    Until I know you’ll understand
    And I will make sure to keep my distance
    Say, “I love you,” when you’re not listening

     
  6. 22:51 26th Mar 2014

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    Reblogged from flyingincloud9

    
If you’re a teen you must follow this blog.
     
  7. 15:06

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    Reblogged from ayyooleeoo

    This.

    (Source: waiting-to-sleep)

     
  8. 07:54 24th Mar 2014

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    Reblogged from dopeeovl

    (Source: lannal)

     
  9. 02:54 16th Mar 2014

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    I don’t want to be a chapter. I want to be a Happily Ever After.

    It’s true. I am a hopeless romantic. I don’t want things, crushes, or one night stands. I don’t want half or even a full year. None of that for me anymore. I just want to love that one person forever until the end of my days. To give her everything I am. I have so much love I want to give, to completely fill every part of her. To show her that she’s the most important, and most beautiful person in the entire world. To receive that trust from her one last time until the end of all times. The truth is I can’t wait. I get so excited thinking about “the one” and how I get to just be everything to her, and how she will be everything to me. I just cannot. I smile and daydream away about it. Getting married. To show her that I am hers forever and ever. I want to settle down and let love take over. I’m waiting patiently..

     
  10. 23:40 15th Mar 2014

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    Reblogged from choichan

    Thank you, Calcifer.

    (Source: e-x-e)